"SUSANNA SAYS..."

To leave the locked-room stage and to meet other TV's is more than just another chapter in the biography of a human being. It is a tremendous leap, an event that marks a new outlook in one's concept of TVism and of our very own personality.

Most of us start our TV life convinced that we are all alone, that we are in some respects a unique form of humanity, that whatever this "thing" is, which end- lessly gnaws somewhere in our body and mind no mat- ter how much pleasure it suggests, must perforce be something dirty, twisted and perverted, Most of those TV's to whom TVism is ugly, distorted and undesirable. change their viewpoint after they meet others like themselves. A few remain, however, who vociferously condemn the very thing that makes them what they are. They tell other TV's they should not dress, they should fight this" aberration" and they should hang their heads in shame for sheltering within their hearts a festering cancer such as this. They are the self ap- pointed champions of guilt. If they were religious fa- natics they would definitely join the order of the flag- ellants and wear the cat-of-nine-tails around their necks, instead of a pearl necklace. They claim to despise the very thing they love and can only see a shameful and dark future for those who have the cou- rage to gladly accept themselves as they are and reso- lve to enjoy life as TV's. They are permanently a- fraid of themselves and almost make a fetish of their pessimism. If you gave them a garden to tend, they would surely buy a can of black paint and cover every flower with it.

But going back to those who do change after they meet others like themselves, the biggest change lies in the fact that for the first time the " girl-within " is called upon to be seen and two considerations emerge as the most important: personality behaviour and its impact upon others. Why are they important? I will describe here a few scenes taken from real life with witnesses to vouch for their veracity. The incidents

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